48 hours out from my last shot, and the rips in my pants are back, the dust is under the coffee table.
One of dope's prime benefits to me is to remove (not physically, but far more effectively) from my perception, the grittier side of life. I don't see the dishes pile up, the wrinkles forming, the kipple, as PK Dick would call it, piling up in the corners of my flat.
I forget all that, I see beauty, straight lines and simple curves, nothing is out of whack, as a builder would say.
All is good and simple and right. there are no bent cops living off an arrangement with a purveyor of chemicals, no governments accepting the deaths and misery of millions in exchange for the votes of a powerful minority who can be bothered to vote.
But all dope wears off, eventually, you keep trying to control supply, but the demands life makes are too great. This is perhaps the only lesson I have taken from the last fifteen years of usage, that it's transient. That you need to build something real that lets you cope with the kipple.
Later that day...
Does everything have an opposite? For every black, a white, for every sap person there is a happy person. Though I must say that as a child this determination of opposites by using language always troubled me.
I mean, to follow the rule we used at school, the opposite of a happy man was a sad man. You just took the adjective and substituted its antonym. Really quite easy. But who invented this rule? Was it laboratory tested under a variety of conditions to ensure it was rigid, reliable, and the most important test, was it reliable? Would it always give a correct output? E=mc squared does, so why not the opposites rule?
Maybe it just needs a little modification? I look at the phrase "a happy man" and I don't see the opposite being "A sad man". Why don't we take the opposite of "man" and substitute it. And what about that first object, that alphabetical dualist, that manages to be both a word and a letter. Like I, A is "open to interpretation".
So starting to apply my newly modified "opposites rule", perhaps we get "A sad woman"? Though this already presents an obstacle. What is the opposite of "man". There are so many filters we can place on that word, sometimes I am not surprised when I hear of a library burning down. It's as if every single word in every book holds the potential to transform itself, to burst into flame, to tear the spine out of its prison. What does surprise me is that so many authors survive to write other books. Theirs is the most dangerous, most noble of professions.
If I want the antonym of "man", I go to my trusty M_____ thesaurus, it seems to tell me that the antonym is "sissy","old woman","ponce" etc. The internet is a little less homophobic, it says "woman" is the antonym. It all really depends on your meaning of the original word. In this instance, I think they meant man as in individual person, so woman as the opposite is acceptable.
So already we get "A sad woman".
And now on to the opposite of "A". Hmmmm