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Census Night was a Serious Disappointment

On the TH of August I was about to do duty when I realized that I had lost track of the letter with the log in number. I kept my head thinking "why panic? in earlier days I would have been just as likely to decide not to fill it in coz they wanted personal information like my name address and signature".

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Maintenance Mode

Drupal has a nasty habit of getting stuck in Maintenance Mode - it just took me an hour to unstick it. If you notice Maint Mode for more than an hour, please write or contact me somehow, and I will endeavour to fix. Apologies to our new member.

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Size doesn't matter

I am not sure exactly what prompted me to write this article. Perhaps Bek's recent death, which was so closely allied to the concept of inability to measure small amounts of fentanyl. But regardless of recent deaths, in an industry that is centred around the concept of weights and measures, in my using life I have had innumerable discussions with others around the idea of 'size'. I'd like to outlay the two major conclusions I have come to over the last 25 years of buying gear.

1. Size does not matter.

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Time to start tracking my usage again.

It was New Year's Eve that I indulged at a social gathering of neighbours, that is I ate some party food and had a glass of beer. I had an enjoyable time of it but tired quickly and by 9pm I was ready to quit and came home to bed where i spent a few hours drifting in an out of sleep but not really sick, I didn't vomit but was queasy enough to shy away from any biodone and didn't look at my 100mg bottle of maintenance dose.

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A cause for hope in the new year?

The article in the news about the promise by Canada's Prime Minister Pierre Trudeau to legalize cannabis is not much for average Australians to get excited about but should give some joy to the marijuana activists. Being a large country next door to the USA and a member of NATO draws attention to the growing trend to roll back prohibition of this popular intoxicant.      

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It's that time of the month....

when the legalities of treatment for opiate addiction demand that I provide a script (prescription) for either Methadone, Biodone, Subutext or Suboxone to cover me for the coming month. "So?" I hear myself ask. Well to be frank, as in the girl who kept a diary of her time in a cupboard during the Nazi occupation of her country, it has been so long since I made a blog entry that I feel it incumbent upon me to maintain continuity. This is a construct of my own subjective notions and have nothing to do with the nature of blogging or the wider Collective Intelligence.


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Another day

I have been immersed in an obsessive/compulsive state focussed around a book about World War 1. Sleeping a few hours per day without any benzos and barely any cannabis which is good for my health provided I eat sufficiently and excercise routinely. If I am doing little more than lying in bed reading incessantly it doesn't feel like it's good for my health. It's not without reason however; a library loan I have to return the book in a month so I can't put it down for long for fear that I will not get the full dose of mindboggling accounts of the depths of human misery in all its forms.

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An average day

What to write?

It's a common question in my head.  I read many books, they're sometimes entertaining, sometimes dull but educational (the literary equivalent of porridge), sometimes they revolutionise how I see things.   That last category is something that seems to happen less and less these days.  Perhaps the brain is wired to accept revolutionary thoughts when you're 20 to 30 years old, and as you age, the brain resists attempts to have the status quo overthrown.

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This is one in a series of movies which I had seen decades ago and finally got around to downloading it and the other two in a series. At the very end of this movie are three prophecies from the Hopi Indians about 'the Endtimes'. I was taken by one and thought to see what I might find.


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This doesn't fit my criteria for a 'News' item and the same goes for 'Reviews' so here's a blog item to help those readers who might be looking for some interesting listening. is something I came across when listening to Radio National on the ABC. You can find the frequency for your area at  this site where you will find plenty of interesting material from all ABC stations.



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