General discussion

After using the Usage Tracker for a while i notice that it gets harder and harder to think of things to put in the Reason for Using pane. When i think of general reasons it isn't hard to come up with a range of transgressions that society, specific people, the human condition or personal shortcomings furnish as an apparent excuse to take drugs.

A favourite topic amongst junkies this is referring to elimination thru the alimentary tract or bluntly 'out your arse'. Whenever i reached a terminal dose of heroin, usually ~750mg/day i wouldn't shit for nearly a week at times and this must be bad although i still prefer it to the diarrohea that comes when hanging out for the stuff. The need to break it up with the handle of a spoon isn't talked about in polite company but leaves a strong impression on the individual concerned.

I must say, being given a shot of ketamine, when I was expecting gear, was, disturbing, to put it mildly. Thought I was dying, and now, a few months later, I'm glad it happened. Reckon I'll be more ready, more able to focus on the moment when the real thing comes along.

Although, Death, he does seem to have a knack of surprising you. I guess that's part of denying his existence - when he turns up, it's always a surprise.